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Empowerment, Self-Discovery & Awareness

If you’d like to know more about me:

I write my story only to share with others who might themselves be in similar situations, or who might relate to it and find some healing or benefit from it in some way.

It’s for the purpose of letting you know that it’s all good and beautiful.  Wherever you are right now is truly perfect!  And when you’re ready to change something, or do something differently ....you will.  Be well!

Over the past 30 years I’ve been on a deeply transformational path of conscious personal & spiritual growth and development, and inner-healing.  

I was seeking deeper meaning and purpose, and that journey led me to discovering my own strengths, uniqueness and “voice”, and my own authenticity; valuing and honoring my own needs - knowing how to get them met, and so much more.   I came to really understand that no one and nothing from the “outside” can bring lasting happiness – that this is something only we can give to ourselves! 

From my early 20’s to mid-30’s I went through what felt like a very early “midlife crisis” of meaning and purpose.  I had "everything" I had been told you should have to be happy.  I “had it all” ...a wonderful, loving and generous husband whom I loved - who loved and adored me, made me feel safe and protected, and loved taking care of us and all of our financial needs - I didn't even need to work (even though I did).  We were materially quite comfortable, traveled, enjoyed life and in general lived “the good life”.

It seems, however, that Life had other plans for me.  At some point during the later years of our 16 year marriage I realized that regardless of all that I had I was no longer happy most of the time. I, who always had a deep appreciation and gratitude for all I had, had somehow lost appreciation and had become discontent – a very painful feeling.  I had somehow developed a “hole in my soul” (as I started to call it) that I didn’t know how to fill, and nothing I did or had could fill it. This realization and discontent led me on a search for “something more”.

I know now that it was a great fortune to realize at that relatively young age that money, material possessions, creature-comforts, safety and security – even a wonderful relationship and love (even though it did have its problems,) could not bring lasting happiness - - and that even thought we long for certainty, in reality there really WAS none!  Certainty, I discovered, was just one of many “illusions” that help us to feel “safe” ....another illusion – sorry :)

 Leaving my marriage after many dark-nights-of-the-soul . . . .

For about a 2-year period at the end of my marriage I struggled through many dark-nights-of-the-soul ....seeking answers and yearning for deeper meaning, purpose and how to live my highest potential.It became clear to me that I would not be able to grow into the woman I could see calling me if I stayed in the relationship. This search eventually led to leaving and striking out on my own – not really prepared for life and all it would bring!

One of the things it brought, that I didn’t expect (right away), and wasn’t ready for, was a new relationship!  Well it seems I learn through being in relationship and so this was the next step in my journey – how to be in a relationship and yet set boundaries so that I could also be there for myself and take care of my own needs of what I was seeking – some of which were to fully self-actualize, know myself better and live and do work that was authentically me.  Even though he was a wonderful person and there was so much beauty and love between us it was a very difficult challenge because all of my unhealed stuff came up ...the ways I over-compromised and over-accomodated, didn't know how to speak my needs(in a way that was honoring of both of us) and issues of respecting and valuing my own self and needs, etc., but I learned so much and grew so much.

Five years later, after struggling to find my way, I was still searching for "answers" that would put my soul at ease and fill that “hole”.  I was still  feeling disillusioned with the world and like I “didn’t fit into the mold”.  I had looked in a lot of places but had not yet found my answers.  I was disappointed that I hadn’t figured everything out yet but obviously I hadn’t! 

Not knowing where else to look and still in emotional and psychic pain ultimately led me to selling my belongings, leaving everything (including my 5-year relationship – which I really had not been ready for) and set out on a spiritual journey to India, seeking Truth - which is what had actually been calling me when I had originally left the marriage. 

Following inner-guidance .....

I had no real plans - only trusting in a higher power, following my inner-guidance, and knowing that I had to go.  I didn’t go for the purpose of traveling, or for visiting beautiful or sacred sites or teachers – I went simply to stop!  To stop all the doing ....and the trying ....and the achieving ....and the planning ....and the hoping ....and the building and creating  - and just stop and sit quietly and listen inwardly ....to stop everything and listen to myself ....to find what was truly meaningful to me!  Not what someone else or society had told me was supposed to be meaningful, important or worthy, or what I was supposed to accomplish to be successful – but what was truly real and important for me ....between me and my own soul!  I wanted to ask all the big questions of life, and find the answers.

Unlike the western world and its values, India is such a place where you could just stop ....and listen inward.  It’s a place that honors our stopping the busywork and busyness and journeying inward to find answers as to why we’re here and what’s truly “real”. 

I knew that when I stopped ....or sat still and listened inward, that I was able to hear what I called “the Inner Teacher” – which is actually our own deeper wisdom and knowing - and find my own answers. 

I left for India not knowing whether I would return or not.  This took all the courage I ever had - and which I actually didn’t think I had.  I wasn’t the adventurous type in this way or the type to travel on my own with very little planning, but I somehow made the decision ....and with no net below me - leaped!  Somewhere along the way I had found the courage to stand face to face with the unknown ....and move forward!  After 10 months of a deep and amazing (mostly inner) journey in India, and one of the most challenging yet beautiful journeys of my life ...where I met the deeper aspects of myself and realized so much of what I was seeking ...and had so many incredible experiences (outer and inner), – much to my surprise I was “led” back to New York. Even thought many of the circumstances I stepped back into were the same - I was different.  I was forever changed, and among many other realizations - I had come to realize that I didn’t have to “go” anywhere to find the answers ....they truly were within me.

Reaping the fruits of the long journey ...

The journey has brought me all that I was truly seeking, and so much more! I live everyday now (and for quite some time now) with the Inner-Peace, Inner-Harmony, and freedom of body, mind, soul and spirit I was seeking.

It has taught me how to find everything I was seeking on the outside, and from others, within myself and through my connection with Source and Life. The level of contentment, happiness, love, gratitude, appreciation ....and feeling like the luckiest person on the planet is such a joy to experience everyday. Yes, I still experience times where I feel sad or deal with the challenges and emotions that come from things I still want to accomplish in this life ....but these are welcome growing pains for me and I have an appreciation for what they are teaching me, and what Life continues to teach me. I have such gratitude and appreciation of ALL of the journey!

Because of my own struggles, working with women who are also struggling with matters of the soul, spirit and spirituality – such as dark nights of the soul, disillusionment and the search for deeper meaning and purpose is what’s most dear to my heart.  This is what brings me to coaching - so I can find the best way to help others in these struggles.

I'm grateful to have learned many healing methods and modalities, studied many different spiritual paths and experienced many spiritual teachers.  I've also studied many areas of personal growth and development. It all formulated into a way I now live my life, and where I live life from ....and being blessed to be able to help others find the inner-peace, inner-harmony and inner-success they are seeking. I continue to be a dedicated student of the Greatest Teacher - - Life!

"I'll meet you inside ....wherever you are."